The Third World.

I woke up today with such an inner peace. A very slow still quiet. Normally when I open my eyes its always to such chaos but this morning was different I realized I was actually a few days ahead of time. I start my job in less than 3 days and when I woke up today I woke up to order. Sighs. What a load off. I have a few friends to reach out to today. I wanna hear from my cousin down in Houston and my 2 cousins on my dad's side. But I haven't talked to my best friend and that bothers me. Monday or Moon day which ever it is or isn't. I spend caring for myself and others, it's humbling and vanity at the same time but that's what the day is about. Tuesday is always the day you grind the hardest It is the day of being tested. Wednesday is quote unquote hump day but that's my Friday. I have no need for a Wednesday, I combine that with Tuesday and Thursday after 6p.m. I take the rest of the week off. I get 3 whole days to spend with the kids. By Monday I am ready for them to go off to school again. But I can't stop the clock I can only jump around. If I could stop the clock I would stop it at this very hour so the kids will be children forever so I could be a mommy and Tony can be their daddy forever. I would stop it right before our oldest turns 13 so he can be that 12 year old little boy always. Annie could be 3 for a lifetime, and Anthony and Antwaun could trick or treat every year. Instead, we all are getting older. As each day passes we jump further and further ahead of this time, but at this point we have to be careful because time could eventually be out of days to jump too. Once you go forward you can't turn back.